Bonne année !
It’s been more than a year since I’ve left a mark ’round these parts. I’ve tried to break the silence on multiple occasions since my last post – believe me. WordPress kindly reminds me in its upper left corner that I have 9 drafts of as-yet-unfinished blog posts. I’ve sat down to my desk several times with the intention of putting out a poem, or journal entry, or something of that nature, only to be fruitless and distracted.
Great detail would be time-consuming, so the abridgment of this update is that I’ve had some major, major changes happen in my life in my absence.
Shortly after my last post, something devastating and gut-wrenching happened. It launched me into several months of ensuing depression, uncertainty, and self-discovery. Then, something beautiful was founded on the pretense of the void, and from that, I’ve continued to build myself back up and take stock. I’ll remain vague and cryptic about this and leave it up to your interpretation, for now. Details to come later, probably.
I will disclose two positives that transpired in 2018. I traveled solo for the first time in February; I took a four-day trip to San Francisco and stayed in a travelers’ hostel. It was an incredibly liberating and much-needed experience, which was nearly last-minute in its fruition. It was the first time I’ve ever found myself navigating a cityscape and place that was alien to me; this forced me out of my comfort zone in order to fully immerse myself in the experience. I relied heavily on public transit and local culture to feel as close to a resident as I possibly could. While it was daunting at times, I came home with a newfound sense of pride and the knowledge that I’m capable of more than I’d previously given myself credit for.
And speaking of expanding horizons, seven months after the trip, I picked up shop and hauled ass across the country, where I now live in Seattle, Washington. It’s been three months as a Washingtonian, and sometimes I still feel like I’m on an extended vacation. The discomfort I felt in the beginning, which still rears its ugly head at times, is a positive one. In the absence of contentment, after all, we grow.
I’ll be back soon and hopefully more regularly, to share and chronicle my journey in finding my feet as a Seattleite. I hope the last year has been one of forward-movement and progress for all of you.